Since the day I turned 29 on the 22nd of January 2017 I fretted about turning 30. It wasn't because I wasn't happy with my life, I really was but it was just this thing that I couldn't control. Thirty just sounds so....thirty! I was thinking that I was suddenly going to be old, the cracks were going to start in my young skin. The years of being in the sun were going to come back and bite me. Then it all became very obvious that it was an age thing. I'm not going to lie to you, this was in my head almost for the whole year. This fear of being out of my twenties and being a thirty year old women. I spoke to a few people about it, like my boyfriend (who just rolled his eyes and kept saying i'm a baby, as he is 43) and my close friends and family. They all said the same but it never made an impact, I just kept thinking about it.....THIRTY. UNTIL, last week. Yes, only last week when I took it upon myself to accept saying goodbye to my twenties and get to grips with this not so big issue, with everything else happening in the world. I know you might think this is silly but I really let it get to me. I let it upset me to the point that I thought life had to change at thirty. Yes it does in some ways, as a women you have to start making plans for the future but this should be a healthy thought, not the daunting way I thought it was.
So I said to myself that I was going to spend the last week of my twenties doing something new every day, alone. Day one the magic happened. I went kayaking in the sea here in Cape Town, it was heavenly. The water was so calm, almost therapeutic like, with dolphins literally jumping for joy right beside me. Natural beauty at its finest. Even though I had an instructor with me, there were moments where we didn't speak and all I could hear was the sound of nature. I literally felt so thankful in that moment. Thankful that I am alive. Thankful that I get to live in a stunning place, Cape Town. Thankful that I have a loving family. Thankful that I have a loving boyfriend. Thankful that I have friends that I can text, call, go for walks and have coffee with. Thankful that I have a body that can exercise. Thankful that I went through life's ups and downs throughout my twenties. Thankful that I get to turn THIRTY! And all the other things that I could be thankful for. It was honestly a moment of clarity, a weight lifted. A life lesson really, to stop worrying about the little things, stop worrying about what might happen in the future and to just live in the moment. I am in the prime of my life and I need to enjoy it because one day I will get old and that to me now is a privilege.